Dear dear diary - Day

Monday, April 5, 2004

12:03PM - Live that drama-free life you always wanted

seems like everyone wants to change back to who there were. I don't know how everyone got so mixed up and lost. but i guess it happens. I think i am already getting somewhere in my "return to normal" mission. Everything is going so smoothly now. there is no drama, no anything. life is taking its route on a day to day basis, and i am getting everything done that needs to be done. I can't believe at how at peace i am with things. Drama sucks, and i am so glad i got to get away from it now. I came out of all this not to get back into it, and i am not going to. I was honest with everyone about the lack of intentions i had. And that is how it is going to be. going to stay. I think taht the reason there was so much drama in my life was because i wasn't talking about what was going on with the people that it was going on with. I was either hearing the whatevers in weird ways...i.e. livejournal or i was having problems with someone and jus not mentioning it and not talking about it. Well i started yesterday. I was online with nina and i was jus like. "why are you doing this?" "why did you say that?" and all that..and you knwo what... it felt fucking great!!!! I mean that is it. that is the key. I have always said that you have to talk about stuff. if you don't talk nothing will ever get fixed. And i talked and things are great. I mean geeze if you have a problem with me jus tell me. maybe i did something wrong, maybe i can fix or change it...or hey...MAYBE...jus maybe it was a great big misunderstanding, and the craziness is for no reason at all.
I'm growing up. and i have learnt how to deal with things different. I don't... ok well i am trying not to jus jump to conclusions anymore. when something really big happens, i try to take a day to think about it so i don't go crazy and tell someone something that i will regret later. ok well i am gonna leave this at this for now.
P.s. the bob marley fest rocked!!!! Rocked my balls!!!!! LOL

Current mood:

calm